What I need to change

I’ve settled down into my studio now and it’s a nice cozy place, I wonder if Kit would have appreciated the fact that Luna loves her carpet? It’s nice having so much room to myself. I inherited a lot of stuff from Kit, it’s sad that I have it, but it is nice that a piece of her is still kind of with me.

It’s a little cool down here but with the amount of hot flashes I get on a regular basis now, it’s kind of nice. Speaking of health, I really need to focus on my health and try to lose some weight. I’m battling stuff like arthritis and other things, and cancer runs in my family too. It’s time to be careful. I’m going to publish this journal because I don’t think I have a huge audience, so it’s not so bad.

Percy and I have started to run our own magical group. It feels good to do things on my own rather than running with a pack. Scary too, its’ so small and we are but a few people, so we don’t have that huge pack mentality. But it’s in it’s seed phase, and that too will pass.

I am working on a piece called Samhain, this holiday is ruled by the element of water. I’ve taken a page from Rembrant’s book and I’ adding Kit into my paintings. I found out that the last thing she thought of was her mother, or perhaps the Goddess, or both. Sometimes I wonder if she really thought about me, or how I would feel or if I really mattered. For all those feelings I feel for her…but I would like to think that she did care about me. She is in that “classroom in the sky” as a wise teacher of mine said, and there is nothing I can do for her. I did ask the Angel Michael to watch over her, and when I did that, I shivered, and I know that means that what I said was heard in the spirit world.

Today, thankfully I don’t have to work till 5pm, so my painting clothes shall be donned and I’ll tackle the reeds in this painting of mine. I’ll put on some music, do some yoga inbetween and track my food.

Yesterday was a bad day, after a few good days, I ate some junk late at night. Cheese popcorn. I even woke up Percy, he asked me if I was “typing while watching TV.” Sadly, no, I was munching. The tv show was drivel too, the writing and acting, second rate. I am trying to cut down the garbage in my life. Too much social media…i.e. Facebook, too much stupid tv too much junk food.

When I come home, I should pour myself some wine, pull out a good book and just read? What about non fiction? Or how about drawing? Lets do that tonight.

L